real love

28th feb,wed,9.54 pm

we had an argument again.he said im too control,am i? i let him hanging out with his friends, am i control him? i let him going to the gigs,am i control him? i let him meet up his friends eventho he already promised me for lunch, am i control him? yes,maybe i am..for him. his friends keep talking behind me about my "queen-control" attitude. they said since he with me,he had no time for friends,no time for lepakking, no time for anything...24/7 just with me..am i control him? i dont even care about what they think coz i thought u r in my side.i thought u know im not that type of person. i thought u know we are happy with each other. but i was wrong.im so wrong. u r just like them. and i just knew about it. u just told me so and all the things u told me just like what they said about me. gosh! now i realise im standing all alone fight for myself deny all the things...alone.

" u r just like my xgf and i hate her!"

what is that suppose to mean?
it hurts me.the statement really hurts me.and he kept saying it several times.

from now on,ill release u. u can go where ever and what ever u want.
if that could makes everything fine for u then ill do.i just can cross my finger and hope u didnt do the same thing as before again. i play with my heart and feeling.
that's love. love could change everything.

he gave me massari's song and im so in love with that song now just like im in love with him.

Real Love

Girl, girl I'm goin' outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin' outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Baby I was there all along
When you'd be doing things I would watch you
I picture you and me all alone
I'm wishing you was someone I can talk to
I gotta get you out of my head
But baby girl I gotta see you once again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Girl, girl I'm goin' outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin' outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Every night when I would go to sleep
I couldn't stop dreaming about you
Your love has got me feeling kinda weak
I really can't see me without you
And now you're runnin' round in my head
I'm never gonna let you slip away again
It's real love that you don't know about

Every now and then when I watch you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk wit cha
If I could have the chance to walk wit cha
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Girl, girl I'm goin' outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin' outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

Today when I saw you alone
I knew I had to come up and approach you
Cuz girl I really gotta let you know
All about the things you made me go through
And now she lookin' at me in the eye
And now you got me hopin' I ain't dreamin' again,

Again
It's real love that you don't know about

Every now and then when I watch you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk wit cha
If I could have the chance to walk wit cha
Then I would stop holding it in
And never have to go through this again, again
It's real love that you don't know about

Girl, girl I'm goin' outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin' outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I"m watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

You're the one that I want and no one can take

It from me
No, no, no, no, no
Even though I don't really know you
I got a lot of love I wanna show you
And you'd be right there in front of me
I can see you passin' in front of me
No, no, no
Girl I need your love
Baby I need your love

*and at this hour he's still out there hanging out with his friends...all i have to do is calm down and calm down...and say to myself,i will get use to it...i will..hopefully...amin*

*and i hope he had fun with his friends and i still having my boring nite alone in front of this pc doing nothing and waiting for him to get back home and accompany me....and ill keep waiting....*

*shut down*