hey me

this morning,Indo's songs makes me feel like wanna write of anything...well something actually...ive learnt so much recently...so damn much...about everybody around me...from a close person to the closest one..they've teach me every single thing without they notice it..and from the bottom of my heart a zillion thank ill give to all of u..well.. i should change something about me..something that makes me feel so wasted..so not needed..or should i say im in a reserved place...find me just when really need me...im just a human being..like u...and u...and everybody in this planet..i can feel hurt,happy,dissapointed and what so ever...i dont ask for a house or a car or whatever...i just begging for an appreciation..appreciate me...if i could sacrifice of something or someone that much more valuable than u just for yourself why cant u do the same thing for me....just once....
herm...maybe its all my fault..gosh...i should follow my last few years instinct..."be selfish"..."stop thinking of other people"..."go to hell with others"...for what reason i make people happy but in other side im so hurt..so unfair for me...they never think of u,helda...never ever...if they did,this blog will never exist tonite,tomorrow or forever... ok its done guys...im so sorry if u feel like i have a minor erm...how about major changing...i never want it happen but u makes me to do so..and tomorrow ill start a new mission...concentrate with people who really appreciate u...who really love u...who notice and realise my existance...pray for my best luck...amin.....
i love u so much my king,u r the reason im strong..well..at least i use to be one..:D...your ratuhati really need your love..haaahhh....im so released..:) ..thanx GIGI ( i will always love u armand) and DEWA...im smiling again..-out-