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i need a vacation...need to refresh my mind and my heart...too much hurts and pains in both of it so i have to clean it up...just if i can creat my own storyline of my life...*sigh*i'd almost get into the accident last night...so becareful...concentrate to the road and the vehicles around you while you are driving...and im sorry to myself coz busy thinking of something did by someone that makes me feel so upset or mad or dissapointed or whatever instead of thinking which way should i go and give signal when i want to turn...herm....i hope tomorrow is gonna be next year...coz ill make sure im gonna have a great vacation at least twice on my new year...desperately need it.....*big sigh*suddenly i feel like i want that someone to leave me alone..*eventhough that someone always leave me alone more than makes me feel like im someone special to him*ergh.....who cares.....just go with you own business and ill go with mine....
but i can say that im still lucky bcoz have people who appreciate me...people who realise that im exist and has feeling like others...the crazy photo session,the pillow talk,the cheese nan with tandoori thing,the few hours phone called from far,the concert stories,the nonstop conversation till i got sleep and many more....im so thankful for that..u guys are the reason i feel happy...-out-